Monday, May 28

Acknowledging the Tag

Couldn't sleep, got too much on my mind, so I thought I'd (finally) answer the tag-bagging that Anki, Blow, and Dude decided to throw at me.

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.
I have a tiny stab wound at the base of my left pinky. My sister stabbed me with a packing knife when I tried to save a few balloons she was letting loose on with said knife.

2. What is on the walls in your room?
Uh, speakers in two corners, a random charcoal drawing of a man and a horse, my class photo, the last picture I have with my dad...Cupboards, bookshelves, a mirror, a little dressing table below the mirror between bookshelves, you know.

3. What does your phone look like?
It's the butt-ugliest phone ever made by Nokia, the 6255. It's cdma and it looks like this.

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4. What music do you listen to?
A lot of mixed bag, mostly alt rock, accoustics and unpluggeds, but I'll give almost anything at least one listen, if it doesn't mention bling, bitches, butts, and (b)hoes (aww).

5. What is your current desktop picture?
Something off Digital Blasphemy called Idyll.

6. What do you want more than anything right now?
The same thing I've wanted for months now. She knows, no one else needs to.

7. Do you believe in gay marriage?
Absolutely, I'm very tolerant, until they decide to hit on me(gay men that is). I'm no one to stop them from doing whatever homosexual ladies and gentlemen like to do amongst themselves, and I believe everyone has a right to have what they want.

8. What time were you born?
No clue. Sometime in the wee hours of the day/night.

9. Are your parents still together?
In heart yes, but well, dad's not with us anymore.

10. What are you listening to?
How to Save a Life by The Fray, and Nightswimming by REM's next.

11. Do you get scared of the dark?
Naa, plus I can't sleep unless I have pitch black. A bit of a problem regarding my mouse, as it has a bright little blue light in the scroll wheel, which I have to find a way to muffle. Paper does the trick most of the time.

12. The last person to make you cry?
Nits. Long story, must blog about it.

13. What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
Lanvin. I'm also fond of fcuk. I have a number of moods associated with my various colognes. Lanvin for when I'm satisfied, fcuk for when I'm missing a certain someone, Nina Ricci Club for when I've got a long day ahead and I'm feeling a bit off (it's a strong one), and Chrome by Azzaro for when I'm going out with a bunch. Also got your standard Polos, Perrys, and Davidoffs. Used fcuk a lot lately, and not much of the Lanvin.

14. What kind of hair/eye type (yes, I changed it) do you like on the opposite sex?
I like long straight hair and deep iridescent pools for eyes.

15. Do you like pain killers?
I don't really bother, the pain will go away. Unless they've been prescribed and I've had a stern "you better take em" from dear ol' Doctor Nagpal, I won't bother. I also won't drink Red Bull right after having one... closest I've been to being stoned in my life, and I've got the pictures of the ceiling of Hookah to prove it.

16. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Naw. If it's someone new, what am I losing out on, even if she does, she's not rejecting me, she doesn't even know me. If it's someone I've known for a while, I'll allow the relationship to happen, won't force it. Talk about it, yes, but no need to make it "official".

17. Favorite pizza topping?
Doesn't really matter. Pizza's nothing great here. Take me to some good pizza and I'll call out toppings.

18. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
I'd like some nice lobster right about now.

19. Who was the last person you made mad?
Other than my own self, there's someone I wish I could make un-mad with me. I'll do it yet I tell you, I'll do it yet.

20. Is anyone in love with you?
Not that I'm aware of. No point, I'll let them down.

That's pretty much all. If you want to, then by all means, consider yourself tagged. Pretty much everyone who's likely to do this tag already has.

Tuesday, May 1

A good song...

"In the sun... now that's a good song"
"Who's it by"
"Joseph Arthur... it reminds me of Taru"
"No Renovatio, you're a good song" she called out with her doting smile as she got out of the car.

Now there's the sister I wish I had over this lifetime... unfortunately the circumstances at which she adopted me as her big little brother I'd prefer not to have had. Her sister, Tara, my ex, got hit by a truck in Sidney, and she died on the spot. I've been taken up as a sort of replacement sibling, younger, but still treated by this naive bundling joyful soon-to-be 26 year old as a big brother she's always looked up to. It's been a bit over a month, but I'm already chalked out to meet her boyfriend of 6 years to approve or disapprove of this guy she plans to get engaged to soon. She's already spent an evening with me at Fortis while I waited to hear about my uncle whose appendix burst. She's already kept my mind empty through some of the most frustrating, lonely days, put me to sleep by singing to me.

She calls me her Hairy Butt Bear, and that's because my face is hairy and my butt is cute... so she says

And she does all that because she loves her sister and loves me because her sister loved me.

This one goes out to Tara... Neets and I miss you Taru, and we wish you were around to hang out with us... I drive now... so you won't have to :)

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May gods love be with you
May gods love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You cant keep awake

May gods love be with you
May gods love be with you

cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find

I dont know anymore
What its for
Im not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe youre not even sure what its for
Any more than me

May gods love be with you
May gods love be with you